This article is kind of contradictory but just go with it. A few weeks ago, I posted on my Instagram story that I’d be accepting questions and then answering them in a blog post. A majority of you all asked me what I do to control my anxiety on a daily basis and especially during difficult times. I’ve been working on that post for over a week now and it’s just not coming together how I would like it to. The words don’t flow, it’s redundant, boring, too “wordy”, and just flat out not good. Anxiety, being one of the most important things to me, is probably why I’m struggling with it so badly. I want to do this article justice and give you all my best work. I promise it’s coming sooner rather than later, I just need more time. So, I’m going to take my time.
I have a reminder on my phone for every Monday at 8 am that tells me the topic of my blog for the week. Every time this happens I click off and ignore it. I can’t force myself to write on those topics if they’re not what is in my heart and on my mind at the time. My life has been insanely busy since Christmas and hasn’t stopped. This January has been the craziest and most amazing start to any year I’ve ever had. Just when things slow down and I start to write, another friend is calling me or busting through my front door. For a while I was getting annoyed and anxious over not posting but then I remembered something, blogging is my hobby. I do it because I love it. I want to share meaningful and heartfelt work with you all. We always hear people say, “put your phone down! Live in the moment!” Well, that’s exactly what I am doing. I am putting my laptop down, turning my reminders off, and living in the moment. I cannot believe that I was actually frustrated about being busy and having fun with my friends and family!
I often see so many people who turn their hobbies into a career, become burnt out as it overtakes their lives, then escalates into too much of a burden. Whether you became a full time, photographer, football player, barrel racer, or whatever, remember why you started doing it. You didn’t get bucked off and drug by your pony everyday thinking, “I’m going to make a living out of this.” You put up with it because you loved it and that’s all you had to ride. Never let the outside pressures of life ruin the things you enjoy. If you’re one of those people who needs a break, take it. What’s most important is realizing that taking a break does not mean you don’t love something, and don’t let anyone convince you otherwise.
I used to be that girl with 3 planners and an insanely strict schedule. I had every day of every week planned down to the hour and if I didn’t complete that day’s list I would be incredibly frustrated and upset. I’ve learned to start living day by day and I believe that is one of the biggest factors in my overall happiness being so much better. Just because you are taking a break does not mean you should completely neglect your responsibilities; it just means you take a step back from what is upsetting you, so you can regroup. Right now, I am taking a step from my laptop so I can spend time cuddling with Lyla and hanging with my loved ones before I am gone for 6 months. Understanding and learning what I needed to do when I feel like exploding is the best thing I have learned since seeing a doctor for my anxiety. Sure, I might go to the gym a little less and sleep a little more, but I am enjoying every day and that’s what matters.
I will be back shortly with some more foolish advice. But for now, take this with you:
Spend time making yourself happy.
Spend time with your loved ones.
Spend time being lazy.
Take a break